This is some of my insight on eating disorders, body image, and beauty.

I know many of you will not agree with me on half of this ( or all of it for that matter ), but my conviction goes unchanged. I HATE pro-ana, it doesn't make any sense. It is such a lie. It makes me so sad to see what my friends do to themselves, and even how I judge myself. I don't know a single person who doesn't judge themself from the outside. Trust me on this one, you are your worst critic. You are your worst enemy. People may compliment you, they may insult you. Heck, it doesn't really make any difference. It may bring temporary happiness or temporary sadness. Either way, what you think about yourself is what is the most influential, positive or negative. Feelings don't matter though. Feelings are deceptive. Don't trust your emotions.

I think everyone goes through an I-hate-myself-I'm-ugly-stupid-fat-boring-and-lame-stage. Well, I know I did. ( Talk about stupid teenage hormones. ) Anyhow, yeah, I had a time in my life where I thought that I couldn't do anything right; I thought everyone hated me. bla bla bla Well, I tell you I was right about being stupid. I was stupid to not see how much people loved me. I was stupid to think that everything I did was wrong. I mean, that's just illogical. Above all, know that Someone is always there for you. Someone will care about the way you feel whether crappy or awesome. He is always with you. Feelings don't make any difference. You're loved as who you are, but not by what you do. ( Or what you look like for that matter. )

What to watch for in friends:
1. Development of food rituals (i.e. eating foods in certain orders, excessive chewing, rearranging food on a plate).
2. constant exercising
3. obviously, dramatic weight loss
4. always leaving for the bathroom after she/he has eaten
5. hair loss
6. obsessing over food labels and calories
7. coming up with excuses or lies not to eat ( i.e. I ate just a little while ago. I feel ill. I don't like that kinda food. I have a soar throat. )
8. frequent comments about how fat she/he is
9. talking about models/celebrities and how thin they are constantly
10. withdrawl from usual activities that she/he once enjoyed
11. dry hair and skin
12. fatigue and fainting ( weakness in general )
13. muscle loss
14. severe dehydration
15. loss of already occurring menstrual periods
16. consuming laxatives
17. tooth decay
18. unusual swelling of the cheeks and/or jaw area
19. depression
20. constantly looking in the mirror


http://www.nationaleatingdisorders.org/p.asp?WebPage_ID=294

http://www.briomag.com/briomagazine/healthandbeauty/a0003376.html

http://www.briomag.com/briomagazine/healthandbeauty/a0007399.html

http://www.briomag.com/briomagazine/healthandbeauty/a0007435.html

http://www.briomag.com/briomagazine/briobeyond/a0005146.html

http://www.anorexiahelp.net/

http://www.healthyplace.com/Communities/Eating_Disorders/self_help_3.asp







It's like you're a drug
It's like you're a demon I can't face down
It's like I'm stuck
It's like I'm running from you all the time
And I know I let you have all the power
It's like the only company I seek is misery all around
It's like you're a leech
Sucking the life from me
It's like I can't breathe
Without you inside of me
And I know I let you have all the power
And I realize I'm never gonna quit you over time

It's like I can't breathe
It's like I can't see anything
Nothing but you
I'm addicted to you
It's like I can't think
Without you interrupting me
In my thoughts
In my dreams
You've taken over me
It's like I'm not me
It's like I'm not me

It's like I'm lost
It's like I'm giving up slowly
It's like you're a ghost that's haunting me
Leave me alone
And I know these voices in my head
Are mine alone
And I know I'll never change my ways
If I don't give you up now

It's like I can't breathe
It's like I can't see anything
Nothing but you
I'm addicted to you
It's like I can't think
Without you interrupting me
In my thoughts
In my dreams
You've taken over me
It's like I'm not me
It's like I'm not me

I'm hooked on you
I need a fix
I can't take it
Just one more hit
I promise I can deal with it
I'll handle it, quit it
Just one more time
Then that's it
Just a little bit more to get me through this
I'm hooked on you
I need a fix
I can't take it
Just one more hit
I promise I can deal with it
I'll handle it, quit it
Just one more time
Then that's it
Just a little bit more to get me through this

It's like I can't breathe
It's like I can't see anything
Nothing but you
I'm addicted to you
It's like I can't think
Without you interrupting me
In my thoughts
In my dreams
You've taken over me
It's like I'm not me
It's like I'm not me

I don't own the song or pictures, but I put the video together myself.